Sick of Life

I'm tired of this life. I wish there was some way I could leave the past behind me and become an entirely new person. That's not possible. I'm not sure what to do any more. I feel so desperate to have at least a bit of peace or happiness. I guess life just isn't for me. I wish I could take it all away and float in an oblivion of nothing but whiteness. Solitude, so I can't mess up any one elses lives anymore. I guess I'll just become one of those peoples that closes up and creates a shell around them, one so thick that no one can penetrate it. See ya. I don't think I'll ever be the same person. A shell of what I once was.